EARTH ANGELS

October 14, 2024

I believe in angels, but I don’t know that I believe they are constantly involved in our human lives. They have other jobs to do. However, I believe that God brings people into our lives to come along side us, to bless us, to become family, to hold us up when we can’t stand on our own. And during this time in my life, there are a number of earth angels who are changing my life, making this terrible time better by their presence in my world.

There are my online friends, the ladies in our ladies email group who pray for me and check in when they don’t hear from me. There are the friends who have asked me to send them these journal updates and who always respond with a word of encouragement and support. There’s Denise who sends me a special mouth rinse which helps keep the mouth sores under control, and so helping me continue to try to eat. There are all of you who read this on facebook or word press and respond with a word of encouragement

Then there are the angels who are here in person. Doug, I wrote a lot about him for the almost five months he put his life on hold to come here and help me. One of my two dearest friends. I couldn’t get through this without his support.

There’s Joylene who is visiting for a week right now. She listens, she feeds me, she does the lotion on my feet, she comforts when I feel frustrated or down about going through this all right now. She is a calm and quiet presence here, someone I don’t have to hide myself from. I know she and her family are always here for me, and when not here, they are all thinking of and praying regularly for me. I am so blessed in my friends. Doug for 25 years, Joylene for almost 35 years!

And there’s Rosie, my beloved sister. Since she moved in, she brings calm and peace to my home. She helps me in every physical way she can, making sure I eat, reminding me to hydrate, doing my lotion. She’s comfort and security. Every day when I wake up knowing she’s still here. I’m so thankful for her, so thankful that she and I have this bond, and there we are close like this. She’s around eight years younger than me, and we didn’t grow up together for the most part. But as adults we found our bond, and time and distance have come between but never dampened that bond. I’d be lost without my sister.

All three of these special people, the internet and email friends help me continue to stand and fight this battle. I’ve spoken about walking this lonesome valley alone, and that is true, as I’m the one with the cancer. But these earth angels come along on the journey, hold my hands, give me a shoulder, when I’m so weary and ill I think I can’t take one more step on this road. Thank you, Lord, for the people you have given me.

As for me, I had my scan last week, but no results yet. Maybe by the end of this week. I’ve had a difficult few weeks, appetite, fatigue, diarrhea day and night for at least two weeks. I’m worn out and could feel defeated if I let myself think too much about it all. Still hanging in though, and each night thinking, maybe tomorrow will be a better day for me. Hope is alive and well here.